Thoughts in the night

Hey lads!

This post won't have a real sense I just wanna talk about my current thoughts. At the moment I'm sitting at the beach with my hostfamily and a few friends,we have a fire and I'm feeling hust fine. Well, it's a bit cold since it's November already and half 8 pm. Yep it's November already. I am only here for less than three more months and I really don't wanna leave yet. Next week half of my time will be over and I just can't believe it. 2,5 months passed like the blink of an eye. In three months, I will be back in Germany. Back in my old grade. Back with my friends. But then I will have to leave so many awesome people behind and I don't wanna think about it. I will leave a part of me in Ireland. I think this time changes me a lot. Maybe not in a way visible for others, but my thinking and my feelings definitely change. I feel like these 2 months here already changed me. And there are almost 3 more following. I feel like the time here made me stronger but on the other handside it feels like I'm much more vulnerable now. It feels so weird to write this because it is so private and kinda intimate. But my blog is about me (let's be selfish!) so I will talk about myself. Before I came here I hated the typical exchange year quote "exchange isn't a year in a life, it's a life in a year". But now I can understand it and really relate to it. It is true. I won't ever be in the same situation again, I won't ever be with the same people again and I won't ever be the same me again. Oh man, deep shit hahaha! I won't translate it to german this time, I'm sorry guys <3. A translation would be weird for me since I think in english while writing this. It just wouldn't be as honest and as pure as the english text.

See you

Nici